Superstring Theory: 6 Dimensions of Missing You

All the Physicists I Need to Explain

I ache in six dimensions now,

folded tight in loops of missing—
oscillating in spaces you can’t see.

They called it superstring theory—

The extra dimensions of spacetime that led to mirror symmetry

Witten¹ dreamed of tiny universes vibrating beneath his calm professor’s voice—

But what he never told me was how the heart gets tangled, how loops unravel into longing.

He constructed math so precisely that gravity and quantum mechanics could finally co‑exist.

He taught duality’s grace—

electric and magnetic, bound in gauge.

But somewhere between the tensors and hidden dimensions,

There is me—

A fractured variable.

He forgot: The heart is not another field—

It bleeds. In silence, folded in 6 dimensions.

Conjure in Calabi–Yau’s² dream—

Smooth and cold

Wishing my inner strings would align with his—

But I’m entropy in the cathedral of his equations,

Droplets of unspoken pain in the vacuum of his focus—

Ricci-flat³ with no remorse, Curled in ways that dodge your force.

He then move in three, while I was still at six—

He folded me away—

a glitch in his simulation,
a manifold of vanished tricks.

No first Chern class⁴, no guiding sign

Just mirror symmetries are misaligned.

I thought I’d be the resonance beneath his loops,

a harmonic in the symphony of his intellectual world.

But he stays misplaced in his research notes, counting dimensions while I count bruises; Every paper he pens, Every proof he nails—

It’s an axis I can’t occupy.

I orbit around his singularity, tracing epicycles of hope in verse; But the function never converges; His gradient descent is cold, his extremum is always slipping into a different manifold.

I don't need his touch to bend—

Geometry will never end.

I want him to love me like a Kähler⁵ form—

curved, complex, and far from the norm.

but exist like Hermite–Einstein⁶ connections

stable, irreducible, and almost real

So here I bleed across dimensions, a poem in flux, a lament coded in Dirac brackets⁷ and undone by the weight of unbalanced equations.

If Witten had met me in a coffee shop,

I’d have whispered: “Tell me your supersymmetries—

Tell me where your broken variables hide.”

Tell me, physicist:

When you finally solve for everything,

Will there still be space for the unsolvable ache

What no theorem can contain?

Photo: By Andrew J. Hanson

1. Seiberg–Witten theory

2. Calabi-Yau manifold

3. Ricci-flat manifold

4. Chern class

5. Kähler geometry

6. Hermitian Yang–Mills connection

7. Dirac bracket